Addicted to the hurt
I’ve been away from blogging for a week, for a lot of you that may a relief! No but seriously my reason for this has been one of need in that someone close to me has been suffering and because of that has made those around them suffer.
I have heard it said that an addiction is an illness and that the person involved changes and their responsibility diminishes, but to be honest I do wonder. People with addictions can show their intelligent and can spin situations to their advantage.
Lies become commonplace, they will swear on their life, your life and anyone else’s life that it will be a case of “never again”, but something changes. There’s something that they cannot let go, they believe that they are in some sort of safe bubble, but what they do not realise is that it’s slowly killing them.
To see what they were before to what they have been reduced to now is a something that can be harrowing. You try to say the good side of things will out eventually and hope that whatever it is that is controlling them will be beaten by the person’s will to change things and turn it around.
From my side of things, it gets to a stage where you start to resent things. For instance it chills me when I have to walk through a hospital and unfortunately that has had to be a lot in the last couple of years. I look more at others in the situation who don’t want to get themselves out of the dire circumstances and I compare it to those who do not have a choice in terms of their illness and wonder why there is the waste.
Don’t get me wrong, I love the person in question. However the relationship with them has changed, there is forgiveness but the forgetting is different.
Monday, July 28th, 2008 and is filed under Pain and suffering, Thoughts & Questions.
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